"Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)" You call me out upon the waters The great unknown where feet may fail And there I find You in the mystery In oceans deep My faith will stand And I will call upon Your name And keep my eyes above the waves When oceans rise My soul will rest in Your embrace For I am Yours and You are mine Your grace abounds in deepest waters Your sovereign hand Will be my guide Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me You've never failed and You won't start now So I will call upon Your name And keep my eyes above the waves When oceans rise My soul will rest in Your embrace For I am Yours and You are mine [6x] Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders Let me walk upon the waters Wherever You would call me Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander And my faith will be made stronger In the presence of my Savior Oh, Jesus, you're my God! I will call upon Your name Keep my eyes above the waves My soul will rest in Your embrace I am Yours and You are mine. Yesterday I was thinking about this lyrics. And honestly looking back on 2015 and the fact that at the beginning of the year this was kinda "My Song" And it wrecked me. While I was thinking about it Yesterday something inside of me was so scared. Because everything inside of me was like " But Trusting is really freaking scary, and do I really want to embrace it again this year? Yet there was that peace that I knew I could rest in His embrace because despite the fact that there were so many times when I felt like I was drowning.. Like I couldn't "keep my eyes above the waves." And it was in those moments on the other side of the world, solo, living in a place where darkness was an everyday battle... Or the four hour bus rides over the mountain to San Jose. the long hours when missing my sister hits me in the gut. Or the nights when I couldn't sleep because I couldn't get the picture, voice, word,.. broken heart out of my head. Those moments when I wanted to blow up the world.. And God whispered " Kendie, can you Trust me with this? " I loved what Ann Voscamp shared.. - " ...these disappointments we can't even talk about -- they might just go ahead & try to make us bitter, Lord... and these banged up expectations of ours, of all that we had expected things would look like -- but don't -- might keep on trying to make us guarded & hard... and the dreams we can't even tell anybody about, but feel pretty bruised right about now, they might be trying to convince us to just give up... we can feel You touch us, how You lift our chins slow, how You speak right into us: "I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for." Jer. 29:11MSG And Your Word touches us. Touches us like a gentle salve tonight in the sorest places... And we feel it: Hope is the salve that keeps our broken hearts soft. Believe it: When you can't touch bottom is when you touch the depths of God. This month, I was broke. And I knew I had a few days in San Jose as well as a three day road trip this week. And there was that feeling of knowing I could trust,..but also the feeling of " Freak out, but what if.." So long story short... through two people that knew nothing about my silent prayers I now not only have the amount I was praying for, but four times the amount. Because our Padre, He's cool that way... He not only wants to answer our prayers, He wants to delight over us, and He loves His kids. We really can trust the unknown with the one who holds our hearts, the world, our stories,future,... Because He is a not only a good, but an amazing Padre. I will bless the Lord who guides me; even at night my heart instructs me. 8 I know the Lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me. 9 No wonder my heart is glad, and I rejoice.[b] My body rests in safety. - Psalm 16
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